myself

2007-01-06T22:23:00.000-08:00

like i haven't used blogger in such a long time , anyways like i had to use this as xanga got freakin blocked, anyway ..i'm practically not bored to bits , cause i have a lot of homework, but like whatever, i'm just merely wasting precious time to do my homework, can't wait for the chinese new year holidays!!!!! love holidays!!!!!!!!
let me leave you with this lyrics for a song....

再见了我的宠爱
谁愿接受这种意外
你赞我天生可爱
不愿看着我离开
同伴也话我傻喜欢爱挫
宁愿情敌在伤我

人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个
无奈你最够刺激我凡事也治倒我
几多黑心的教唆我亦捱得过
来煽风来点火就击倒我么
谁恋爱就多障碍死性我不想改
如我没有你的爱我没法活得来
情人的存在是我从来都志在
能在我拱手让爱

我怕可一不可再
难道你被爱都有害
我确信天真不会错
威力会移山填海同
伴也话我傻喜欢爱挫
宁愿情敌在伤我

2006-11-21T00:55:00.000-08:00

hey guys , i have officially switched to xanga , because irritatingly enough, (enter country in here ) keeps blocking blogger
so visit me : www.xanga.com/playin_withfire

2006-10-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

i lost my fallen.dreams-@hotmail.com account so, including all the e-mail addresses on it, so if u could just spread the word and ask people to add me on my new account that would be great
my new accountis at joyce.mok-@hotmail.com
please people in singapore ???????????

2006-10-19T05:04:00.000-07:00

그들의 약속은 하나도 지켜진 것이 없었다...<-my keyboard is screwed

2006-10-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

today is like a very typical normal day, nothing much, i feel sad , do the people in singapore still remember me ????? am i like a passing shadow, a passing phase , forgotten memory.sigh........ my dad is like playing stupid chinese poems in the background .i feel stressed , the exams are coming!!!! science is so hard ,so is the chinese. once i listen to music it's like everything is like ok, and good , like music is my drug , it numbs everything around me, makes me feel happy, i'm so addicted to it . i can just not do anything and just sit there listening to music drifting to my world of imagination , to my place of no physical pain, worry, just peace , joy, do i sound scary ???

2006-10-07T23:51:00.000-07:00

another evanescence song i noe........
-.-

few other songs i like........

2006-10-07T23:48:00.001-07:00

listen to this song, i'm so addicted to it, i don't noe why ???, i'm addicted to evanescence songs anyway, except haunted, shudders, creepy.......

2006-10-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

listen to this song, i'm so addicted to it, i don't noe why ???, i'm addicted to evanescence songs anyway, except haunted, shudders, creepy.......

2006-10-05T01:10:00.000-07:00

i feel so deprived , i can't see my own cbox, i'm gonna get a floorbox instead

2006-10-02T00:17:00.000-07:00

well today was nothing much, cuz this week is china's national day so we get a week off, so during lunch, my parents , brother and i like went out witha few of the singaporean neighbours, to eata t this peranakan resterant , i ate roti prata !!!!! how i miss singapore !!!!the now the 8 year old neighbour is playing with my bro cuz sad enough, hardly anybody is my age at the 7th block anyway pictures of my laptop !!!!!

2006-10-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

ok, friday was like house day and we could like wear anything , debbie was like you can see who's fashionable and who's not.alice looked glum again, feel sad too, cause when i see her looking glum, i don't feel like talking then, anyway at least later on the day, she lightened up so yah, during music, me and debbie was like poking biyong, cause he was blowing the balloons for later, as you see we were raising money for terry fox so we did this carnival thing that's why , after that i was like throwing balloons at david then like he threw back at me it carried on until the teacher scolded us i feel so appologetic , cause she was like individual testing us on our music and music background , so yah.......i like to disturb people.after which we were dismissed for lunch, the lunched sucked as usual , grossss, i should take a pic and show you sometime it was so fun , at the carnivaal, so many people played at our both, it was so crazy !!!! the korean rice cakes with chilli sauce taste disgusting
!!!

2006-09-29T22:49:00.000-07:00

hello people , i officially am not going to ever not post for long any more......cause guess what i got a new babe in the family my new maroon laptop !!!! i'm so freaking happy hahahahaha I'm gonna blogblog blog again!!!!

2006-09-17T02:31:00.000-07:00

i noe you guys must be thinking wat the hell joycee this traitor, doesn't even want to blog anymore, it's not that, it's just that i don't have access to a computer, why? because my father took the existing laptop that i was using to korea , so i'm left with no computer, i'm usng the one at the club house, $2 singapore for an hour , to do my project because i have no choice ........i hope you guys will understand , and continue reading my bloggie for updates .....sorry .......

2006-09-06T01:12:00.000-07:00

ok tamtam here'sthe thing
i have 18 peole in my class,
-sherina (hongkong)girl
-dasmond(singaporean)boy
-ingrid(korean)girl
-sang-rul(korean)boy
-izabel(singaporean)girl
-hang-yun(korean)boy
-arieana(chinese u.s)mom's a singaporean, father's a cantonese
-valerio(italian)boy
-debbie(malaysian)girl
-ongama(afrian)boy
-ho jong (korean)boy
-betty(korean)girl
-david(korean)boy
-danny(korean)boy
-biyung hoon(korean)boy
-alice(born in beijing lived in us for 7 years)

people not in my class
-eugene(he owe's me money)
-william(he keeps hitting my head)
-shi(keeps forgetting my name)
-reena(the chinese girl born in germany)
-alex(the hong kong girl who lived in england for quite a while)
-julia(hongkonger)
-stella (french)
yup so that's about it although there's a chance that i might forget someone

2006-09-06T00:54:00.000-07:00

life sucks when the thing that you'd not like to happen the most, happens and so you'd like try to reject it , but you don't noe how for fear of hurting that person so yah . i'm so stressed but my friends say it's nothing and would be soon forgotten . but how. i think i have already ruined the friendship. the person is like not talking to me . sigh, i may have one enemy to my list on the like third week of school.i'm so tired .so much homework , the standard here is like really high for languages , the english/literature here is really hard, it makes the english/literature in singapore like super super simple and the chinese, we're learning is using the sec 3 chinese textbook of singaporeso yah.....i've like so many tests. so yah, last night i put msg in my mom's cooking , and then said that she cooked well because it tasted so good (of course cuz iput the msg in when she wasn't looking ) but i don't plan to admit to her because she'll kill me, she HATES msg .haha

2006-09-04T01:53:00.000-07:00

beijing's getting cold
i have more homework here than singapore, singapore's really easy , here i'm like dying under the pile of work ........ugh i'm so so busy
well at least the chinese teacher didn't came today so a really nice relief teacher came very docile, we could talk as much as we want .then mr depooter was picking on me saying it was very rude of me to talk while he was talking, but hey it was important.i'm so dead beat . better get going with my homework . today at lunch, i had a lumpy mass of food , gross tasting pasta , oily chicken, hash brown. yah that's about it, it's not that much actually because they only fit everything on a small plate so yeah.umm. if your wondering, we do wear an fugly looking uniform which vertiually has no style at all all stripy anyways that was it nothing interesting today

2006-09-02T02:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday , i had this punishment thing for not bringing my IT worksheet.so i had to write like
Dear Mr Manuel,
I will Bring my worksheet every IT lesson
joyce
(50 times )
anyway, couldn't he likejust let me off on account that he cut my recess queue 2 times , even though i noe your supposed to let teachers go first
anyway when i handed the lines up, he was like was it fun to write 50 times?,and i was like yah, it was fun( i'm such a liar) before going on to correct myself and say no to prevent myself from getting more punishment. during recess alice was like sniffing william and then he pushed her towards him, so GROSS !!!!i really pity her anyway. Music was so boring just clapping along to the beat. then yah, Mrs park (korean ) came to our house ( my dad's friends wife) came to our house to discuss the water filter and like giving us some mosquito repelling thing, as i was saying about the big fat and juicy china mosquitos that kept biting the whole family .anyway at least me and my mom's cooking tasted not bad , my brother who is being known for being a picky eater loved my cooking !!! hurray..

2006-08-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

today was like , wat a normal day? yeah i guess , better not put the laptop on my lap, it's bad for everybody, cuz for guys it heats up the crotch , bad for fertility reasons. anyway had lifeskills , mr lanchaster was really boring, naggy like a woman. hate art, oh yah i'm reading da vinci code right now, it's very offending for me, because i'm a christian , i guess.

2006-08-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

ok, had a great day (yah right, stop lying) an average day( yup, finally you're telling the truth, joyce)ok, ok now i'm telling you the truth stop bugging me . i noe i'm freaking you out by talking to myself .woke up at 7 today . because of the stupid fat and juicy china mosquitos which kept bitting me at night so i woke up the whole family who was sleeping.anyways, changed into my uniform and like hitch a ride with a year 3 boy's parents (i'm year 9 ) so he was preety much alittle boy comparable to my brothers age. anyway got to school at like 8 ? then went for assembly until like 8.30 then time for lessons to officially start. literature was hard , the standard is equivelent of sec 4 lit in singapore so i'm basically struggling with it. chinese wat can i say it's a hard topic that i'm struggling with it, the chinese teacher sucks . always giving us work and i have lessons with her everyday.i hate geograhy ..... i love history, i noe that is so random but hey extra information won't kill . ohohoh, at the last period i hadperforming arts , really fun, i love it and my parents are watching this looking for an ambassabor for guizhou thingy ...reallyboring ..iwanna watch mtv !!!!! ugh gonna do my work now. i'm talking nonscence in this blog post.i solemly promise i'll write something more juicy and into detail on the next blog post, my mom is standing behind me right now. i'm so tired school ends at 3+

2006-08-27T00:21:00.000-07:00

well ok, here's my first day of living in beijing.
the week leading up to the move was practically fun actually, going out with friends and stuff. you noe why i didn't feel sad ???? because i was in denial .....i couldn't dare to face the fact that i was going to be some place new, new enviroment, new friends , new house...it was going to be a new begining ,a new beggining in which it would shape my life. i only stopped lying to myself during the trip to the air-port. so allthe emotions that i had blocked during the week started getting to me.i thought to myself this is it ,no more living in singapore.i felt a deep sense of regret because i didn't appreciate the time there but life is full of changes so i might as well get used to it. of course i can't wait to go back to singapore next year if i can . wish that everybody will still rememer me though

2006-08-16T04:33:00.000-07:00

i feel so darn confused on what to do . my heart and my head are going in seperate directions. my heart like is telling me somthing that is not logical and my head is telling me someting so logical.but i'm so so tempted to follow my heart instead even i noe it'll leave me sad and everything

sigh sigh

2006-07-20T01:42:00.000-07:00

this seperate blog is created so that i can keep in contact with you guys in singapore